The Beginning 9/22/15
So far my senior year has starting off at a good start and i'm enjoying all my classes that I have. There has also been many changes to the school since last year like new food. last year they had simple food but now it's become a lot better and tastier. What I've also noticed was that many of my old teachers have left, but we have new teachers and a new principal. I'm starting off good for my first month in school and doing fine with my classes, though i'm not really connecting with my classmates and teachers. I feel like I'll be falling behind in my classes but I just need to keep going and do my best to get better. For my pacing i’m doing alright except for English where I need a bit of more work. I could be doing a lot better in my classes, but it's just really hard when you don't have enough time in the day to work on all your work for school. With my teachers pushing me and expecting me to do a lot of work in a very little amount of time even though no one's perfect.
I have been working hard on catching up on my work and doing my best in class but it's just hard not having the time. At this rate I feel like the worst will come to me with so many problems at school going on. I just hope things get better soon. I know I'll need to stop what I love to do and my fun activities in order to improve. So far for my senior project i'm getting it getting it ready for my graduation as well as preparing me for the future. I’ll need to finish all this by the the end of the year or sooner to be on pace. About my senior project the job shadow is beginning to seem hard and confusing on what I need to do to finish it. I'm yet to know what job I what to do for my job shadow as there is no jobs that suit me or i'm just not good on finding the right job to interview. I feel like it would be a fun learning experiences for me to understand new things but I didn't know.
So far this senior year i'm looking forward to is hopefully graduating and having a fun year. I hope to walk for graduation and be there with my friend so that we can all graduate together. My goals for this year is to finish all my classes on time and be on pace in order to graduate on time. I also need to finish my community hours, but for my future goals I still don't know. I haven't really been paying close attention on what I want to do. It feels as if I have given up on what I wanted to be, as i'm not going to make it to my goal. I guess I'll just have to let faith guide me.
Changes Are For The Good 11/8/15
Since my last journal some things have changed, school has become even harder with the new system they have put in (PLT) even though it might help those that need it. My classes have giving me a lot more work to do for homework. I wish they could find an easier way to do work. Maybe removing the computers and going back to paper and pencil were all you had to do was to finish you work in class and turn it right then and there. I have tried to catch up as mush as possible but I seem to be always behind by one assignment in my classes. When I accomplish one problem another one rises in its place. With the rest of my classes i'm doing fine but not English or Spanish 2 because in Spanish they expect a lot from you in so little time as well as in English. In English there is just too much work to do just for graduation in which I think is too much. If you really think about it most of the thing that are recommended for your senior project aren't really important or they can find another way to do the senior project. Maybe as long as I keep the same pace as i'm right now I'll be good.
I did have to drop out of my chemistry class in order for me to finish up and catch up with my other classes. I wasn't really doing well in chemistry to begin with. The class was not hard but rather not interesting for me. The things that I need to accomplish by the end of first semester are just my classes. I'm hoping that I can finish on time to get ready for second semester. The only difficult things that i'm dealing with are doing my work for my classes because it's getting difficult for me when you get more and more work. More problems with my senior project is that I don’t think I can finish on time before its due. There are some thing that i'm enjoying about my senior project and that is the new work that goes with it. Other than that there isn't really much that is fun about this. The only thing that i'm enjoying is that it's my last year even though I doubt that I'll graduate on time. At this point I don't even know if graduation is even an option for me because i'm far behind in English and Spanish.
I'm trying to catch up as much as I can by doing my work in class, but it's like i'm not able to finish on time because I really don't care that much any more. I do hope to graduate but in the end I really doubt it. For post graduation I really don't see it at all. I don't really feel any support that will help me. It would be a miracle if I pass my classes mainly English. As I think about it I feel as the only things that interest me are the things that I want to do but most of that I don't have at this school.
Halfway There 1/29/16
My winter break was uneventful. All I did was stay home and relaxed. I wish I could have done more, but there was hardly anything for me to do. My family didn't go anywhere either, they stayed home as well. For some reason I want to go back to school because i’m the type of person that can't stay home for a long time without doing something productive and school is the only place where I have something to do. After coming back to school I realized why I didn’t like school in the first place and that was that it’s stressful. After reflecting back to my first semester everything did go well with my classes. I did managed to pass all my classes on time, but there were some spots in where I struggled to catch up. It seems when i’m in a tight spot I always manage to get passed it most of the time. Last semester was good because of the new system they introduced. It did help me a lot by giving me more time to finish up in class. I wished I could have done more to make it more memorable.
My first semester did show me how little time I had to finish school and that doing something late can affect your grading. It has gotten me thinking about what I have to do my second semester and that is to catch up and not fall behind. My main problem will be to finish up my senior project on time including my classes. I do plan to stay on pace and finish on time before graduation. I also need to start practicing my senior exit interview in order for it to be good. I have been getting help from my friends and teachers in order to get me prepared for the end of the year.
So far everything is going well and now I need to start thinking more about college and well it isn’t going so well. I’m not going to a four year university because it too expensive for me or my parents to pay. I did apply for COS hoping to go for two years, but other than that I haven't really applied for any others. I know that you're supposed to apply for at least four colleges to increase your chances but for me there ether to far for me to go to or too expensive. I don't really see myself in college do to the fact that it's harder for me to get in because i'm not an american. This also limits my chances of me finding a job that I want to work in. So far the only choice I have is to work in the field to earn money. It gets me thinking of what was the whole point of even going to school if I knew that's where I would end up. I try not to think of it and hope I do get into one college so I won't have to work there. I won't let my years of learning go to waste.
All Good Things Must Come To An End 2/27/16
Now that everything is coming to an end with so little time left it feels like yesterday I was back in elementary with my friends and teachers. Many things have changed with the way school works now and it’s become a lot difficult to graduate. With time flying by fast it's only a matter of time before my graduation day comes. At this point it's hard for me to express how I feel about graduation coming closer every day. I feel as I should be excited but also scared towards the end. I am really nervous because i'm afraid I won't finish in time. With the feeling of not graduating my stress is becoming very hard for me to control, to the point where it's hard for me to handle. I have to stay calm, clear my mind, and focus on what I need to do. Situations like this are what i'm used to unless they backfire on me. Than thats where I panic. Getting ready for post-graduation I haven't really given it much thought other than finishing all my work for my classes on time. I will need to start focusing on finishing my senior project before the due date comes. I also need to start practicing for my senior exit interview in order for it to go well. Other than that it's mostly my classes that I need to finish up in time. Their going well and i’m sure I will be caught up and done with them on time. There is also my hours that I will need to finish before graduation day comes.
As the days get closer I am looking forward to “graduating” and pretty much the end of the year. I wonder what will happen when graduation day comes. I can't wait to see everyone for graduation and be there for the final day. It will be hard for me to say goodbye to my friends and teachers for helping me make it this far. I’m grateful for my teachers for being their to help me and for giving me support. I also couldn’t have done it without my friend to be their when I need them the most. Lindsay High School was a lot of fun. I have made many great friends and meet many great teachers. I wish I could have done more for them for helping me and giving me support along the way. I just wish they would know how much I would like to thank them. I would like to know what everyone will do after high school and hope I would see them again in the future. As for me i'm yet to know what I would do after graduation. I’m hoping to go to COS for two years and then transfer to a four year, but I still don’t know if that would happen. I think I will wait a year before making a decision on what I should do. Hopefully everything goes well.